FUNK🤪😭🙄

Nothing like the days you wake up in a bit of a funk and well you see everything looking bright and all, but you just don’t feel okay, then it happens..in the worst environments, in front of the worst people and you can’t really explain why you’re crying because mainly it’s none of their business and also you’re already too into it to even talk.,

So yes, he left,. my favorite 😭left without even a proper bye, I learnt about it the very day he was taking the flight,.and shit it hurt for some reason it hurt so bad, is still feel numb, like didn’t I deserve a proper by..I mean you were leaving me for God knows how long, and we hadn’t even straightened out our issues..don’t get me wrong..I’m happy you’re going for greener pastures, couldn’t be more proud, but 😭😭😭😭still..,it’s true what they say.,you miss it when it’s gone, I always knew you made me happy..stupid happy, so the minute I knew you’d be gone.,Everything came back..from how you smiled to how stupid you were sometimes, and the rag of bit seeing that..I, just can’t😭

I can only wish you well, and pray for two things, that you’ll get what you’re loking for and so will I,

This fucking feels like a breakup..,or is my QLC hitting too hard , but no, its you leaving..and I’m honestly damned if I keep up with the misery, and lose sight of myself, it’s honestly time to put myself first, in everyway.,

Because even the solace I thought I had, is evidently a little too busy recruiting and hitting things off🙄and for some reason on that day..when everything went dark for me, the little light I thought would illuminate also went to be the shining armor somewhere., And in my clouded judgement, what made me think of the solace, made more sense that my own broken pieces were exactly that Mine to fix,mine to deal with.., I mean they’ve always been mine, it’s just that this time I honestly didn’t think I could., But ofcourse being the queen I am..my crown is mine to straighten, after a storm comes 2 things;

Calm and a survivor,

A survivor who is getting better at saving herself, and I couldn’t be prouder of her💋💗