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Today started out so good😋
It was bright and beautiful, the sun rays ooh my..😏

I loved how warm and soft the rays landed on my skin ☺️

And then I remembered; something and some people..and how dirty they did me..🤪🙃

And I legit almost lost it😂 I literally had to pep talk myself outta that shit

I just didn’t get why, now of all times .

I’m flipping;

when I’ve been the bigger person for so long

When I chose to walk away from all that shade:;

Which brings me to this:

Being the bigger person is really hard

And it takes so much to just let go..and let karma💆

Sometimes I wanna flip so bad that even I don’t recognize myself ⚡

Then there are days..I’m at peace with myself and just let it go

But tbh; do all people deserve it

, to let them be and let karma

What if I wanna be their karma and destroy them.twice as much as they did me

Make them regret knowing me as much as I did them

Ooh make them cry..

Daamn I wanna make them cry so bad..that their eyes will want to pop out

And yes sometimes I miss how cool we were

And im.even more surprised about how cool I am.now too

But in that moment today..

I questioned so many things..,

Why im i so good to people sometimes

Why do I care..when evidently they didn’t

WTF 😒

And then I remembered.., you know you have a good heart when you feel bad doing bad things to people who deserve it..

When you apologise for mistakes you didn’t even commit

When you forgive..even before they ask for it

Prolly their shitty asses didn’t even realize they fucked you up or the don’t care

Or even worse that was their money move..that fucking you up so good was part of their agenda😭

And i still have no answer..on when to be the bigger person

And when to stup low to their level..and bitch it out..

I have to say though..

Being the bigger person is more like adulting

You hate it..but you got to know how to be good at it

How to control your emotions: again hard AF

I will be happy(oh Happy day🎶).., when I see karma work her way up to this ungrateful ingrids

Because then she will have proven that being the bigger person was the best choice

That all the days I cried and woke up smiling were all worth it

That all the days I held my tongue from making people jump off cliffs;

Was the right thing to do..

For now all you can do..is just smile through it..,

Shake their hands when all you want is to throw a shoe at them

To empathize with them when they have hard times..okay there is a little pleasure in knowing someone who hurt you is going through it

But again if you feel sorry at Any moment..you are one of the good ones

The good rare ones

The gems🥇

Today was a real temptation for me .. but I’m super proud I didn’t go all dragon 🐉

I feel it coming soon though 🔙🔛

And let’s hope then I’ll still chose to be the bigger person despite how bad it feels.. to see them living their best hoe lives

☯️ I guess this is what they call the BALANCE of LIFE💯

Got a new bra today though

And let me just say anytime you’re low look at your titties.. you’ll feel so much better especially with a good bra

New bra ..amazing titties;

Who dis🥇🥂

Have an amazing night loves

And thanks for always being here through this 💓💓