Everytime anyone asks me, what’s my biggest fear when it comes to getting attached to people..,I would hardly come up with an answer,
But then I figured it out..,my biggest fear is not being enough,😂😂pathetic, right? I know
But just the thought makes me run, thinking that I would give a shit about someone..and they wouldn’t give the same kind of shits.. uuussh ..makes me so proud of my vibrator 😂coz that bitch gon give shits for as long as she got batteries,🤗😉
being in the actual situation…I was right,telling people to stop giving too many shits about other people, it feels like shit, you literally wanna cry at some point, and you wait,,for them to show even the least effort so you can use that as an excuse to go back🤪🙄
And when they don’t. It hits home, that they didn’t ask you to give a shit about them in the first place .they didn’t tell you to stop seeing your random hookups for good quick fixes,,heck they didn’t even ask you to think of what a future would be with them ., Fam they didn’t ask you ..and they were right…
They have the right to go off unbothered ..to their random fixes, and good hooks..,they will still go about their life..like you didn’t even exist.,they already replaced you probably..and if not they’re holding 🔥 interviews for it😂😂you probably wanna kill me by now ..but I’ve been down that road more times to know I’m spot on .,
And you weren’t necessarily wrong..,you just did what you thought they’d do for you..,you gave everything because you thought what you were getting was everything..and yes you’ll have to pick yourself up and get your shit together again…the same circus all over again just a different monkey
And all those days you wake up… feeling a million unrelated things, just know it’s part of the process, and on the days you wake up and you really miss them..,just find a way to go through it.,gets worse when they’re the first ones you think of when the little things happen and you want to gush all about it to them, also find a way to go through it
Remember there was a time you were stuck on someone else..and you moved on like a champ… you’ll do it again
And after going through that cycle enough times.. you’ll probably get to a point of just giving it all up..,or maybe you’ll get to a point of having it exactly how you wanted…with someone as nice as you, if not better..,or you’ll just tuck your heart away and
Whatever decision you make.., make sure it’ll serve you., Because it’ll all come down to you..when things go to shit
🥂to being good people,
🥂to attracting positive experiences,.
🥂to being phenomenal 🤗
xoxo.code.blog 