CROSSROADS

People who easily cross bridges for others,,are the same ones who get so stuck when they need help, because we really don’t know how to ask for help., or rather we don’t want to be a burden, we also don’t know how to articulate what exactly we want😂😂😂 but we really need help .. and alot of the times we keep to ourselves are times when we are fighting the hardest battles..and silence for some reason gives a certain peace we always crave

Or more like, we like to thug it out.., figure it out on our own..because really; talking about it..gives a temporary relief but in the long run.., we still cry ourselves to sleep..still stuck.., and helping others is easier because we know…we relate to pain all too well to know what others need even without them saying it .,and it feels good night thinkng about our own problems and just focusing on others gives a sense of happiness I can’t put into words

Before you get too excited., thinking I’m here with a solution 😂😂😂

I’m not .im here to ask help for us..because we really need to fix it..or rather I feel the need to. ,

Because if you relate to anything I’ve just said… my best guess is your relationships are shit too😂., Because we hardly say anything…we smell something fishy..or pick up a wrong vibe and we gone…we don’t even bother breaking it off😂😂 we just cry over the wishes we had..and wake up and move on and then cry again at night and wear the biggest smiles ..all over ..

In my defense..when it comes to relationships., Mixed signals and situationships fuck me up so bad because.,I’m such a hopeless romantic( ps..this is so hard for some to believe because i have a resting bitch face😂, and I’m a complete bitch at times..and if I have been to anyone. Fuck you .you provoked me. I’m a nice person) and i give too many shits..and I wanna help all the time, and spend time with you, and just talk to you,pray for you..😂😂yes i said it..I pray for people and im such an ass to other people during this time.

And being in this situation more times than not…i hate the conversations that have to do with..what are we?

1. Because if we were anything solid we wouldn’t have this conversation..I wouldn’t be in this limbo.,

2. They’ll find some sweet lies ..and my dumb ass just gon believe that shit😂😂😂😂im selling my heart for this reasin FYI .hmu for any ready market😂😂😂

3. Because it already means I’m giving more than I get..,and tbh cutting them off is usually easier than the conversation., Because also more often than not they leave so good riddance

And when you do this alot of times…you start getting comfortable with being alone.enjoying your own company is not only a good thing. But very eye opening

Gist is though..,when you get to a point where dispensing potential relationships because they feel like they’ll be some work… I think that’s a problem and that’s where I’m at..because what the hell are you having the coversation for.. right?

How the hell will we meet soulmates if this is us😂😂 in as much I want to try and have conversations more ..I also feel like I’ll need a really strong personality ..to just be like ..Girl sit your ass down and let’s talk..because i just be packing my knock off purses 😂😂 and I’m tired of packing only to start a similar journey just with a different driver🙄

Anyone with a diagnosis of what this symptoms might be😂😂hmu ASAP

🥂 here’s to having conversations.,

To.., not packing our knock offs😂🥂to healing

🥂to strong personalities and not settling for less(this depends on how low your bar is ofcourse 😂)

It’s always a pleasure 😘😘..beautiful souls