Wreck

I’m sinking and fast, it’s dark
Really dark,

It’s a darkness I haven’t felt before, it’s stronger, it’s grip on me is never ceasing

I thought I was past this, stronger than this, I thought it’d be as easy as it was before, but this time I’m done trying and fighting

I’ll let myself sink, it’s probably for the best, the world needs more light and I’m too deep in the darkness,I’m watching the world taking care of everyone but me

Mornings bring me immense sorrow, waking up to do it all over again , to be strong to fight to be hopeful only to fall apart in the end and wish for death

I want it all to stop, everything the mornings, the trying, the tears, being hopeful for a better tomorrow only to wake up to a worse yesterday

I’ve tried for so long, too long, I hoped I was one of the good ones that deserve good things but maybe I’m one of the souls doomed to darkness, I prayed for favor , I got scorn

I prayed for healing only to break worse, I prayed for new beginnings only to be haunted by the past, I prayed for the joy of life., And now I can’t stop thinking of the peace of death. To not wake up, to not feel anything Is all I want. Because it’s TOO much, it’s waay too much, it hurts so deep, my eyes are tired of crying

My voice is tired of crying out for sth that probably doesn’t exist and I it does..I’m just not worthy enough for it’s presence. I’m happy tho I made so many people happy, and I know they’ll be okay because they have so many other people anyway.Ill do the world and mysel

I’ll do the world 🌍 and myself the favor and just leave. I’ve served my time, I’ve paid my dues, and now it’s a wrap. I hope all the dreams i had for my fav people will actualize. I’ll watch over y’all I promise that much, I’m sorry I was weak, that I chose to quit but if only you knew how much I fought then you’d probably feel differently . I TRIED, I really DID.