Waves 🌊

So many at times we act from our dark points., Our shadow, the side that we don’t talk about, the side that goes rogue, the chapters we close and dread to revisit

But real growth happens when we actually face it., Have a pow wow with your shadow., Accept when you act from it, call yourself out., That’s how you get conscious., But I kinda get why escaping this shadow is easier for most people, because it requires breaking in so many ways., It requires utter honesty with your ego, to know when you’re acting from self and from spirit,

To accept that you’re weak, trying to figure it out..and that most at times we take offense in things not because they were meant to be offensive but because they’ve triggered a part of us that’s too scorned and too hurt and too dark to face. Because in that moment so many things come back, to see if you’re better, or worse, to test how
much you’ll crack, and for some reason we’re tested more when we try to outgrow some things.,

I should know, the last 13 mths have been a torment on so many levels, I have grown from so many things, others not so much,unfucking yourself is a process because you have to grieve the versions of you that allowed some of the fuckery, it involves alot of forgiveness especially forgiving yourself and others , it involves making promises to self and fulfilling some while breaking some, Because it’s human nature to go with what is familiar, we are scared shit less when it comes to trying new things., I’m still so proud of the process I’m making, the little wins the big wins.., the LS come with some lessons too
And weirdly just because you’re trying to be better doesn’t mean the world will kumbaya in joy and give you everything you want

The one constant, is you pick yourself up..it’s all you, you let it in, you choose, again choices and consequences, and remember some are very costly, anything that involves losing yourself is too big a price to pay, because finding yourself again is a trip. A great wall of china trip 😂 . You get so dark so lost, you feel utterly hopeless and then one day you feel like you can fight, and the days start getting better eventually with time and experience with the bad days, you handle yourself with grace and gentleness, like fragile heart you are,

As we fight through the tough days, laugh through the best days, show up for ourselves on all days.

I’m celebrating my growth even in my tears and so should you, because you deserve it, and we will catch a break, and bliss , and more so then will we show up for ourselves more, because we did it in the darkness, solitude, pain,

Yin yan
Check and balance., Born champs hatuwezi lose
NO🧢

Love yourself, you’re all you got

. ❤️ I love you all🐾🍀