Most people aren’t afraid to love or dont want love, infact if there’s sth people crave.., yes you’re right .,it’s love
Because love in itself doesn’t hurt
And before you kill me😂😂because I know you already rolled out your eyes, and are now cringing because you remember a love that hurt so bad, you’d rather be rammed into a wall.., but my stand stays love doesn’t hurt
Because love is that smile you always have when you’re texting your person, love is that excitement that builds knowing you’re about to see them, seeing your phone chime from their calls ,gets you grinning like a meth addict whose just scored some meth,😂
Building a whole life with them in your head, feels great, you even have baby names, places you’ll vacation to, business ideas you can’t wait to pitch, the gifts you’d get them on random days and special days, and yes you read that right, I’d get mine gifts just because I thought they’d like it or they’d look good in it
Now let me tell you what hurts, it’s the expectations we place on people, it’s our insecurities, it’s knowing that you’ve been such a fuck up before and you’ll probably fuck this one up too, it’s having to walk away from someone you wanted to live long with, it’s waking up from your little dreams, it’s accepting that no one owes you shit not even loving you back , it’s accepting that you’re not enough for them and that’s okay, or that you’re too much for them which is also okay, what hurts is rejection, because the end always feels like rejection,
It’s having to open up again, that’s the part that hurts the worst , gives you all the ptsd available, but funny thing is you’ll still build fantasies with someone else..until.you get to live the life you want with someone.
But in all this I honestly can’t wait for it, having been in a few situationships* I seriously need to start fucking with people who actually fuck with me😂😂😂I’m out here wilding asf😂* ..I got to see a side of me I never thought I had, and that’s how much I can love, and I love it, don’t be fooled tho, I’m still struggling with the moving on part and I don’t think I’ll open up anytime soon but when I do, it will be bliss, peaceful, adventurous, luxurious, hot, wild and happy af too😍hoping I’ll have my brains right and just stop going for the Ultima red flags 🤩
And for y’all., I hope every waking moment is bliss with your loved ones, I hope you both make each other so comfortable y’all start to look like siblings, I hope love lives there everyday, I hope you still think of them at your happiest, I hope they’re the ones you run to at your lowest, and with no judgement they help you out of it, I hope you’re building with someone who’s building with you, I hope when y’all get mini y’all’s, they will grow up seeing exactly what love is, they’ll see that you can find someone who chooses you always, and that your love will be the love they seek for and find❤️
To my trainwrecks😂😂 y’all we need a support group for each other., Well I need to be rammed up a wall first 🙏 With a few smacks and a whole lot of hickeys.,a make out session so intense I forget my name.then I can come preaching 😂,but I’m rooting for us ..,
xoxo.code.blog 