As we wrap up the year, ofcourse there are things to be grateful for, things we’ve learned from, things we want to forget completely

Just now I wanted to make a pros and cons list of my year..and my pros literally had such few items…while.ky cons was overwhelming..

I’m grateful for life, family, friends, my internship..well bits of.it.,

Saying that I’m.super grateful for the fact that my mental status is surprisingly still infact. This has been the year I’ve been the most depressed, its been the year I’ve cried myself to sleep more often than not,its been the year I’ve fought the darkest mental battles..its been the year I haven’t been myself the longest., It’s the year I’ve been most destructive just looking for a get away from the sinking sand its been..,it’s been the year suicide has crossed my mind in ways I can’t even explain..,it’s the year I’ve cut ties with people I saw a complete ass future with;some I just lost., It’s been the year I’ve just wanted to quit on life itself 😣😭😭

2019 truly has been an year..,

And I’m also so grateful for the few favorite people 😍💕💕 I spend most my days with.., y’all dont know it buy youve been an amazing source of joy, strength and love..and as some of my loves are about to begin the most amazing chapters of their lives..yes baby mama you know it 😉😉😍💃I honestly can’t wait to see how amazing of a mum you’ll be,.

2020 please be nice to me..and everyone else who wanted 2019 to be their last..,

Im still not certain the turn life will take, with all the uncertainties i still have, the pain I still need to heal from,.. all i can do is just hope its all going to be for the best,

Happy New Year my loves

☯️😍💓hope life treats you well.