Knots we Tie

Love is alot of things..,it’s a good feeling or rather its a good high, it can also be a bitch….uuuh it is a bitch actually ..Now that you’ve thought of all those people who sparked different loves in your life

Now let’s talk love in terms of forgiveness

Tbh forgiving is hard and forgetting is almost impossible. In a marriage😂😂you need more forgiveness than love😂😂😂when they leave the toilet seat up, when they change where your toothbrush is, when they chew loudly, or they ate your snack without asking😂petty right..,

Funny thing is… no! it’s actually sad and appalling,and gruesome that most married couples fight over these very petty things and when I mean fight, I mean war..,if you’re African mostly Kenyan grew up in an average home, you’ve seen this with your folks, the fights they used to have, in that little spot you’d hide in to watch it all happen ,as you cry and pray he doesn’t kill your mum…and you see that anger you feel when she doesn’t walk away after that,because deep down you know that if things were reversed two things would happen; 1, you’d have walked away or 2. killed him#I know it all too well#.,I still feel it when I stare at some walls and it all comes back and there I am back to being 10 yrs in those ugly nights when other kids were sleeping peacefully and I was praying for the safety of one and sad to say the death of another …anyway story for another day or maybe Therapy (I don need this shit)

After such a long time, it is now that I’m seeing how much forgiveness is needed in a marriage and Family. Everytime I’m watching the news and stories if couples fighting over these very petty issues to the point of killing each other.makes me so mad..,because it doesn’t make sense to me

I’d rather die by my own hand than let a man kill or maim me. Is he really worth it ? Is that pain with every cut worth shit? That marriage you’re trying so hard to fight for, is it worth the pain?, because he’s going to replace you as soon as you’re burried…if he even cares to wait that long, don’t you think you’d have done much better for your kids if you ran

And I know you stay because of the kids..I’ve heard this talk before,I know this ground all too well, but they are his kids too. And yes I’m a woman and yes I just said it…they are his kids too…fucking leave …you only have one life

And speaking as a kid who’s been in this fuck. .. they’d rather you leave ..deep down they know its the best thing to do..because they can see . And as much as parents like to act like nothing ever happened …it destroys the kids, in so many ways. And that hurt goes so deep oh my God ..and the hate they will have for that man you call their dad.,that hate will never leave their hearts, Trust!! they’ll act right and shit but there will be days they will wake up even after all that is over and still hate him.,daang they could spill his blood and dance on his grave

Ever heard a saying” to get your kids to adore you, love their mother,. It’s true and the opposite works well too

PS. To Future dad’s, love your wives/baby mamas because you chose her.., she’s your poison..Deal with it

When it gets to a point you are fed up, walk away,. Fuck society and those teachings on how a woman should persevere, to build her home, stay and look after the kids, the home needs you,stay for the kids,

Well I’m here with no experience of being married for shit to say

You are the home. Your heart, your womb is the fucking home ..and you can’t have that dead ..so Forgive but don’t stay connected

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